Relationships are complicated shit.
So we kinda live together now. Brian made a fort for us to live in in the back of his car out of a sheet and his Ireland flag. He’s cute. And before today/yesterday, it was amazing. But yesterday he applied to work for Greenpeace and then came with me to work. He actually backed out on the farming job he had offered to him before to work with me. I know he loves me now. And we’ve had so much fun together lately.
But I guess it doesn’t really feel the same now that I know he’s going to be sticking around me for a while… I suddenly feel trapped and boring, like the couples who stay together only because they don’t think they can get anyone better. I don’t love him in the desperate, helpless, endlessly passionate way I used to. And that sucks.
I think we just need to spend less time together… Is that normal?
